Hey everyone!
So I've been on my winter holiday break for about a week now, and it has been amazing. I finished up exams on the 17th and traveled to my mothers house the next day. I haven't really had a chance to come home for about a month with being busy with school and work, so it has really been nice to be home for a little while. I was having a bit of trouble with my anxiety, getting overwhelmed with work and school but being home has made me feel a lot better.
With the holidays comes family time, and I don't know about all of you but I do celebrate Christmas and seeing my family and friends is probably my favourite part! Tomorrow, so Christmas Eve we are having our big family get together and I can't wait! With being in school it is hard for me to go and visit family so on big holidays like Christmas I get to catch up with everyone and it's just really nice.
Other exciting new... I am no longer single. I know, weird right? This is a very new relationship as it literally started on the 18th, but we've been talking for a bit and it just seemed right. Our first date was really cute, well in my opinion at least . We were going to go ice skating, cheesy I know (but super cute), anyways when we got there they had run out of most of the sizes of skates so we had to figure out something else to do. So because there is a movie theater in our mall we decided to go see a film, and we winded up watching The Good Dinosaur. All in all this holiday break has been amazing.
Take care! xxx
Wednesday, December 23, 2015
Wednesday, November 11, 2015
Lets Talk About Mental Illness
Hey everyone,
I have many posts that begin with "it's been awhile..." or something along those lines. Again it has been awhile. Lets see, the last post I made was in July so it's been about four months since I disappeared from here with no word of why I left. Well that's because I have no real reason as to why I stopped blogging. Well no reason that really makes sense, I just stopped. I really had no idea why I didn't continue to blog until a few weeks ago where I found out exactly why.
Before I tell you why I am going to start at the beginning, or well at least a more defined time that I can pin point. In 2011 I began working at a Tim Hortons in my home town, it was my first job and I was really happy to be making my own money. However this excitement didn't last as I began getting stressed out and upset before I would begin a shift. I lasted 7 months at this job because I would cry, panic, feel sick, and miserable before each shift of work and I could not take it any longer. I took about a 6 month break from working before I began my next job for which I lasted just over a month. Again I would feel stressed and sick before each shift of work and quite soon after starting. I then took another break of about 6 months of not working. My next job I was at for over 1 and a half years and only left because I was going to university in a different city. I loved this job, it wasn't stressful, I mean it had it's days, but it was nothing that I would physically get upset at. through my first year of university I chose not to work and focus on making friends, memories, and of course doing school work. In my second year of university I began a new job in my new city and I was there for about 6 months. Again I was feeling stressed and it was kind of far from where I lived so I decided that enough was enough and I quite. This is the 4th job that I have quite. By 20 years old I had quite 4 jobs and the longest I had lasted at 1 job had only been 1.5 years. Now why is this?
Well this summer, going into my 3rd year of university I began yet another new job. I have been there for 3 months now and I love it. I mean like any job it has it's days of stress but I like and enjoy what I am doing. However, I am getting to that stressed point again which I am trying to overcome. I am trying to overcome this feeling because I now know why I feel this way.
In the beginning of October I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD.) For those of you who don't know this is an anxiety disorder characterized by excessive, uncontrollable and often irrational worry, that is, apprehensive expectation about events or activities. So basically, I worry, and I worry so much so that it effects my life in a negative way. I always thought that I was overreacting and it is both a weight off and on my shoulders, knowing exactly why I am like this. Having GAD can cause things such as fatigue, fidgeting, muscle tenstion, panic attacks, and disinterest ( there is a lot more symptoms but these are just some of mine.) Disinterest is where this blog comes in, and other things that I love that I have put aside. This mental illness, and yes this is a mental illness, has effected me and the things that I love and I am not going to allow that any longer. I am now on medication that is helping me control this, but my mind still races with thoughts that I cannot control, but because I know why these thoughts are going through my head I have a bit of myself back.
So I am going to continue blogging, but with more of a focus on myself and my life. I'm not a beauty blogger and though I like make-up and beauty products I'm not an expert so I'm going to leave that type of stuff the professionals. I love blogging, it gives me a sense of relief and has the power to help me get rid of some stress so though my content may change a bit, I'm going to be here a lot more regularly.
Take care! xxx
I have many posts that begin with "it's been awhile..." or something along those lines. Again it has been awhile. Lets see, the last post I made was in July so it's been about four months since I disappeared from here with no word of why I left. Well that's because I have no real reason as to why I stopped blogging. Well no reason that really makes sense, I just stopped. I really had no idea why I didn't continue to blog until a few weeks ago where I found out exactly why.
Before I tell you why I am going to start at the beginning, or well at least a more defined time that I can pin point. In 2011 I began working at a Tim Hortons in my home town, it was my first job and I was really happy to be making my own money. However this excitement didn't last as I began getting stressed out and upset before I would begin a shift. I lasted 7 months at this job because I would cry, panic, feel sick, and miserable before each shift of work and I could not take it any longer. I took about a 6 month break from working before I began my next job for which I lasted just over a month. Again I would feel stressed and sick before each shift of work and quite soon after starting. I then took another break of about 6 months of not working. My next job I was at for over 1 and a half years and only left because I was going to university in a different city. I loved this job, it wasn't stressful, I mean it had it's days, but it was nothing that I would physically get upset at. through my first year of university I chose not to work and focus on making friends, memories, and of course doing school work. In my second year of university I began a new job in my new city and I was there for about 6 months. Again I was feeling stressed and it was kind of far from where I lived so I decided that enough was enough and I quite. This is the 4th job that I have quite. By 20 years old I had quite 4 jobs and the longest I had lasted at 1 job had only been 1.5 years. Now why is this?
Well this summer, going into my 3rd year of university I began yet another new job. I have been there for 3 months now and I love it. I mean like any job it has it's days of stress but I like and enjoy what I am doing. However, I am getting to that stressed point again which I am trying to overcome. I am trying to overcome this feeling because I now know why I feel this way.
In the beginning of October I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD.) For those of you who don't know this is an anxiety disorder characterized by excessive, uncontrollable and often irrational worry, that is, apprehensive expectation about events or activities. So basically, I worry, and I worry so much so that it effects my life in a negative way. I always thought that I was overreacting and it is both a weight off and on my shoulders, knowing exactly why I am like this. Having GAD can cause things such as fatigue, fidgeting, muscle tenstion, panic attacks, and disinterest ( there is a lot more symptoms but these are just some of mine.) Disinterest is where this blog comes in, and other things that I love that I have put aside. This mental illness, and yes this is a mental illness, has effected me and the things that I love and I am not going to allow that any longer. I am now on medication that is helping me control this, but my mind still races with thoughts that I cannot control, but because I know why these thoughts are going through my head I have a bit of myself back.
So I am going to continue blogging, but with more of a focus on myself and my life. I'm not a beauty blogger and though I like make-up and beauty products I'm not an expert so I'm going to leave that type of stuff the professionals. I love blogging, it gives me a sense of relief and has the power to help me get rid of some stress so though my content may change a bit, I'm going to be here a lot more regularly.
Take care! xxx
Monday, July 6, 2015
Creativity!
Hey everyone!
So I have a new video out on my channel and it is all about being creative. I have always been a creative person but sometimes it is hard to find some inspiration so I wanted to kind of capture that feeling in a video. For this video I went a more film direction rather then just sitting and talking in front of the camera and I have to say I really enjoyed it. I liked having more creative shots and moving around which I haven't really tried before so I think I'm going to experiment with this type of video more.
I do already have other video ideas some like this and others with me sitting in front of the camera so do look out for those soon! I really have been enjoying making videos which I guess isn't too surprising since I've enjoyed doing it since I took media studies in grade 11 and I do spend all my free time on YouTube. Anyways here is my new video and I hope you enjoy it!
This is probably the video I am most proud of so far so I really do hope that you guys like it!
Take care! xxx
Saturday, May 16, 2015
Studio Projects 2015!
Hey everyone!
So if you didn't know I am in University for Studio Art and last semester I took a sculpting course which was pretty cool so I wanted to share some of the projects I did!
This was the first project that we completed and it was a module assignment. So basically making something out a lot of the same item, in this case I used popsicle sticks. For this I was looking at fractals as my inspiration and I ended up making triangles and gluing them together and placed them in this spiralling pattern
The second project that we did was this cardboard project which we had to make a smaller item to our height. I chose to make my Polaroid camera to my height so I had to measure out every little piece of the camera and times everything until it stood to my height. Though it doesn't seem like anything amazing this took me about 25 hours to make if not more. I was quite happy with how this turned out especially the lens, that was probably the best part of it.
This was probably my favourite project out of the whole semester. For this we had to make or own head out of foam and plasticine and make it life sized. So we had to measure out all of the proper dimensions and spend a lot of time looking at our faces. It was so weird noticing parts of the face that people don't normally realize, like the areas that curve in just slightly on your cheeks. I mean it was really odd to have had this face for you know 20 years and not know everything about it.
This was our final project and we had to create a soft sculpture. I used balloons and stockings for mine and it was quite the long process. At first I had a completely different idea but it ended up not working out so I cam up with this instead. Obviously it is an abstract piece that I wanted to represent organic figures so yeah, I was really happy with how it turned out.
So that is what I spent most of my semester doing! I probably spent about 15 hours on average a week outside of class on these projects so studio consumed my life the last few months. I know that these pieces are not anything amazing but this was my fist time doing sculpture and I had fun so it was a good time.
Take care! xxx
Saturday, April 25, 2015
ipsy April 2015 Glam Bag Review!
Hey everyone!
Can you believe that it's already summer!? I am so happy that it is finally summer vacation and that I can finally take a moment and not be so stressed out. I really underestimated how much time my Studio Art program would take up. I had two studio courses this last semester and spent about 6 hours in class for each course and about 10 hours outside of class working on different pieces. Needless to say I was swamped with school and I am glad to be free from it for a bit.
Anyways, I was super happy to get this months glam bag because it came around the time my exams had ended which I thought was a nice little end of semester treat. I really liked the theme of this one which was Beautifully Bohemian and it came with such a cute and summery little bag that I am already using as a travel bag for little items.
The first product I pulled out of the bag was a Hikari Cosmetics Blush in the Shade Tango. I thought at first that this shade may be a bit to bright with my super pale complexion but when I used it, it was actually just a nice subtle colour.
The next product I pulled out I instantly fell in love with because the packaging is beautiful and vintage looking. It is theBalmCosmetics NUDE Dude Eyeshadow Single in the shade Fit. I really like this coppery colour and a nude shade is always good for any occasion.
I also got the MicaBeauty Eye Primer which I actually haven't used yet but I am excited to eventually use it because I actually have never used an eye primer before. So I am interested to see the difference with doing my eyes with this product.
My favourite product out of this bag is a product by Olive Natural Beauty and it is The Olive Lip Balm. I love lip balms and I always have at least one on me at all times (usually two) so I was super happy to get this. So far I really like this one and I really like that it is made from all natural ingredients. It also smells so good that when I first smelled it my stomach growled because it smells so delicious that I could eat it, I'm not even joking like it smells amazing!
The product that I was most meh about was Starlooks Satin Finish Lip Gloss in the shade Cuddle. It's not that I don't like the product but I'm not a big lip gloss fan so even though I really like the coppery colour I probably won't really wear it.
So I guess that is it for now, I'm thinking about doing a little post about some of my studio projects from this semester so if you would like to see some of the pieces that I created let me know!
Take care! xxx
Can you believe that it's already summer!? I am so happy that it is finally summer vacation and that I can finally take a moment and not be so stressed out. I really underestimated how much time my Studio Art program would take up. I had two studio courses this last semester and spent about 6 hours in class for each course and about 10 hours outside of class working on different pieces. Needless to say I was swamped with school and I am glad to be free from it for a bit.
Anyways, I was super happy to get this months glam bag because it came around the time my exams had ended which I thought was a nice little end of semester treat. I really liked the theme of this one which was Beautifully Bohemian and it came with such a cute and summery little bag that I am already using as a travel bag for little items.
The first product I pulled out of the bag was a Hikari Cosmetics Blush in the Shade Tango. I thought at first that this shade may be a bit to bright with my super pale complexion but when I used it, it was actually just a nice subtle colour.
The next product I pulled out I instantly fell in love with because the packaging is beautiful and vintage looking. It is theBalmCosmetics NUDE Dude Eyeshadow Single in the shade Fit. I really like this coppery colour and a nude shade is always good for any occasion.
I also got the MicaBeauty Eye Primer which I actually haven't used yet but I am excited to eventually use it because I actually have never used an eye primer before. So I am interested to see the difference with doing my eyes with this product.
My favourite product out of this bag is a product by Olive Natural Beauty and it is The Olive Lip Balm. I love lip balms and I always have at least one on me at all times (usually two) so I was super happy to get this. So far I really like this one and I really like that it is made from all natural ingredients. It also smells so good that when I first smelled it my stomach growled because it smells so delicious that I could eat it, I'm not even joking like it smells amazing!
The product that I was most meh about was Starlooks Satin Finish Lip Gloss in the shade Cuddle. It's not that I don't like the product but I'm not a big lip gloss fan so even though I really like the coppery colour I probably won't really wear it.
So I guess that is it for now, I'm thinking about doing a little post about some of my studio projects from this semester so if you would like to see some of the pieces that I created let me know!
Take care! xxx
Sunday, February 15, 2015
Dealing With Stress!
Hey everyone!
So as you may know I have been dealing with a lot of stress lately because of school and what not so I decided to make a video about it! Yes I have filmed a new video! I have my next few videos already planned out and I actually just filmed another video today so be prepared to see me on YouTube more often.
I really hope that you enjoyed this video and maybe got some new tips out of it. Let me know some videos you want to see me make in the future and please subscribe to my channel if you want to see future videos :)
Take care! xxx
Friday, February 13, 2015
Playlist Live Blues!
Hey everyone!
I hope you are all having a wonderful February so far! As most of you know and probably have been able to tell with my lack of posts that I have been very busy with school lately. I've been so stressed lately and all I have wanted to do is write on here and I finally have the chance to do so! Right now I am on my Reading week which is basically a week break off of school. I do have a bit of school work to do during the break, but it isn't an overwhelming amount so I do have a lot of free time this week.
So as per what my regular posing schedule was I wanted to give you guys a bit of insight into the kinds of videos that I have recently been watching. I am very much the type of person who has a set of subscriptions on YouTube that I watch regularly and I am always on YouTube so it is a big part of my daily life. That is also why I began making videos, because if I'm going to be watching content all the time, I might as well be contributing to it. Anyways, for those of you who are big into YouTube you know that this past weekend was Playlist Live and I love watching all the vlogs that come from there because even though I sadly wasn't able to attend, I could still see some of the things that went on during the event. I am really hoping to be able to attend a YouTube event in the near future, I know there are some in Canada but next year I'm hoping to be able to go to either Playlist Live or Vidcon and meet all of my favourite YouTubers and maybe get some insight into how to make my own videos better.
So, this week I've basically just been watching Playlist Live vlogs from channels such as FunForLouis, PointlessBlogTv, SACCONEJOLYs, and MoreZoella. The video that I have featured is a recap of the whole weekend from MoreZoella's channel and it is so well made. I love her vlogging style and her realness in her vlogs so that is why I chose to show this one specifically. This is also a really long video, about 35 minutes, and I prefer longer vlog styled videos so I really enjoyed this one.
Anyways, have a super fantastic weekend!
Take care! xxx
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